College No More

Oh boy, here we go. I never like writing these blogs. I love to appear like I have it together and know what I'm doing but SURPRISE! Even Sarah Aubel can make some not so accurate decisions.
For some time now I haven't really had peace about going to school. I know what God told me and I have no doubt in my mind that I know what I'm supposed to do, but my execution was just a bit off. There were so many factors about going to college that just didn't set well with me. The deal breaker came in the mail this week. I got my award letter for financial aid and I qualified for quite a bit. But even with all my scholarships and grants and loans, I still needed a lot of money for each year of school. Now you can argue that if God calls He's gonna provide and I know this. I believe this with all my heart! I've seen Him do it time and again, but I cannot justify going into that much debt for what? A degree? A piece of paper that "qualifies" me to do what I do. God and I had a talk about this, He flat out told me "Sarah, this is not about the degree. You don't get your qualification from a piece of paper. I've qualified you and that's all you need". He's right, I don't need to have a 4 year college education, but I do need to be skillful. So after much prayer and consideration, I've decided to not go to USF this fall. I will not forget what God put on my heart to do though. I will pursue becoming a skillful musician and will get better and better! I will pursue excellence but I will do so in a way that will not hurt me financially in the future. I plan to stay home and get lessons from local people. I already have a WONDERFUL vocal coach and I know God will lead me to the right instructors who will be able to help me get better at the gift God has given me. It's not easy for me to change my mind. It somewhat scares me that I don't have an exact plan anymore. But I know that God is faithful and He will guide each and every move I make. He has already opened so many doors already for me to pour into my community and it excites me! I love York, PA and I want so badly to see a move of God here. I can only do this if I stay here and help to bring the Kingdom of Heaven to this part of the earth.
Thank you all for bearing with my decisions. I know it can be hard to keep up with me but you all do such a wonderful job! ;)