Though I sleep, my heart is awake

Well, today was the very first day of SOW Finland! YAY! I'm so glad to be able to be a part of something new God is doing here in Finland. It's such an honor. I spent most of the day in my room with a guitar. Unfortunately it's the first time I've really gotten to play guitar since I've arrived in Finland so my poor fingers dont look so great right now. Each one has a blister. But thats the price of being a musician. I'll take blisters anyday! Anyway, I was playing guitar and asking God which songs to pick to lead worship tonight. Man, it was not easy! I have not led worship in such a long time. I was a bit worried. But God in His faithfulness doesn't need me to feel comfortable or even prepared. He can use me right where I'm at. I mean its not like I dont practice every chance I get! I just don't get those opportunities as much as I would like.
So tonight was my first time ever leading worship with a guitar. Its a good thing that we do worship more acoustically here b/c I've found that I somewhat pace when I play guitar! HA! I just cant stand still. But it was great. I wasnt nervous at all and it's crazy b/c normally i would have felt sick to my stomach and gotten all uptight inside but i was able to just completely lose myself in worship! It was just so wonderful! I just LOVE His presence. I was created to worship Him and that is where I feel most at home. Man, if we really will be spending all of eternity in His presence just worshiping Him, I am COMPLETELY ok with that! Nothing will make me happier.
My passion for God has gotten uncontainable. I really cant even describe it. Every day when bedtime rolls around i'm SOOO ready for sleep. But i've gotten into the habit of reading before bed, and im currently reading "The Supernatural Power of a Transformed Mind". And EVERY night, God shows up! It's not fair b/c I need  rest but I so badly just want to spend time with Him! He's such a tease! But then when I get up in the morning, it's like i'm so anxious to be with Him. Blah!!! I LOVE HIM SO MUCH!
I've come to the conclusion that no one will ever be able to come close to understanding the life I live until they begin to pursue their own closeness to the One I live for. He is my favorite. I love Him more than life.
This trip has already impacted me way more than I can even put into words. I'm pretty sure I could write forever and a day about how in awe of Him I am. I've never been so blown away by nature in my life! It really does just radiate His glory!
Ok seriously I have to get to bed. Six thirty is going to come way sooner than I will want it too.

Peace out world!