I want to look on the face of the one that I LOVE!

So today was pretty intense for me. This week has been really great! Our first week of teaching has been with Lisa Cuellar. She has been speaking on things like passivity, worship leading, and the importance of praise. Today we did an exercise where we took Psalm 103, blasted some worship music and just prayed out our praise to God. We didnt ask God for anything, we just thanked Him for whatever He's done in our lives and praised Him just for who He is! She encouraged us to just keep praying even if we didnt have words. Just pray in the spirit! So that's what we did for 15 minutes! Just praised and thanked God. It had nothing to do with us, it was ALL about HIM!
I cant even begin to describe what this time was like for me. I started off praying out the scripture and then just went off into my own prayers. Thanking God for everything He's ever done for me. It's so crazy when i actually spend the time just thanking Him for everything and contemplating just how great He is, I'm stupid for EVER not trusting Him or doubting Him. Blah, He seriously is just so freaking good. He's never failed me, never given up on me. I mean seriously He's had every right to. He's given up so much for me and i've rejected Him so many times and yet He's always there with arms wide open ready for me to come running back into them! Ugh! He's so amazing.
The other thing that really impacted me today was Lisa encouraged us when we ran out of words to just pray in tongues. Now i'll admit, i've had a very hard time with this over the years. Growing up in an Assemblies of God church where i've seen it faked so often, I never trusted God enough to believe that it was possible. It always just seemed really fake and i'm just not about that. But today I did run out of words and it felt so weird so I just said, "God what the heck" and started speaking in tongues. Um, I cant even explain what was going on. I wanted to just burst into tears! I felt so close to Him. Something in my spirit just totally connected with Him. I have never felt that in my life and that's how I knew that whatever I was praying meant something. It was connecting with the very heart of God and I was so overwhelmed. We finished and went to lunch but my heart was still with His. It was hard to move back into my daily responsibilities. I love Him. I cant say it enough.
Being here has given me an unexplainable passion and love for God that I dont think I would have ever experienced in america. At home where im so dependent on people. Ive had to break away from everything I know so that i literally only have Him. He know's me so well, i gotta give Him that one.