So I'm home! Back in the good 'ole USA. I have to admit, it feels pretty strange since I was outta the country for half a year.
Home so far has been, if I'm being completely honest, hard. Change has never been an easy thing for me and this time around hasn't really been any different. But I think the thing that has made it the most difficult is the death of Cindy Meyers. Before I left last summer, I had been working with Joe and Cindy Meyers at our church's youth group. I got to spend lots of time with them, laughing, praying and encouraging the youth. They all liked to make fun of me for eating raw green beans and hummus. :) By the time I was leaving, Cindy was in a lot of pain and going through test but they didn't yet know what exactly was wrong. While I was in Finland, I was informed that she had pancreatic cancer. I prayed and prayed for her and even shared with my friends in Finland and they prayed with me. I was so anxious to come home and be able to pray for her in person. But I never got that chance. I found out that on wednesday morning, Cindy passed away.
Back in July when Corey and I release our album, Cindy was in the hospital during the cd release party and wasnt able to make it. But Joe took one home to her and she told me later that she would listen to it over and over and it made being in the hospital easier. Joe shared again today at the funeral, that out of all her cd's she had, she chose to listen to mine and Coreys. They even played our cd at the funeral. It means so much to know that my music helped to bring her peace in the midst of all her pain.
You don't know how much someone added to your life until they aren't in it anymore. Being a missionary I'm always missing someone but I know I may get the chance to see them again soon. I know I will see Cindy again one day, but not having her where I know her to be won't be easy. Our youth group wont be the same without her. Love you Cindy! You're missed greatly! <3
When my parents told me about what Joe said, It really hit me hard. It's crazy how you can think your doing or making something for one purpose but then God uses it for His own purposes. And for me, This Album truly did more than I ever thought it would. God used in a way that makes me almost ashamed that I didn't appreciate enough the gifts God gave me to bring peace, hope, and love. God bless Joe and DJ and give them peace and comfort in this hard time. And I thank you God and praise you that Cindy is now on her hands and knees praising You and singing worship songs that far surpass anything I could ever dream of writing, producing, or thinking. Love you Cindy<3
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