One of the things God has been speaking to me since the beginning of the school is about healing. It's cool b/c Petri who was the leader of the week last week really has a heart to see people healed and God do miracles. Something that God's really been trying to cram into my head lately though is that in order to see a miracle, you have to have a situation that requires a miracle! But i've noticed that I try to avoid those situations b/c of course they require so much faith and are always uncomfortable!
There was a time last week where I was walking to the YWAM cafe for dinner and saw an older man walking with a cane and a very visible limp. My first initial thought was, pray for him. But immediately following that thought came another thought, why should you pray for him b/c he's old and canes and limps come with old age. It's just life. WHAT A LIE!!! And unfortunately I believed it and continued to walk to the cafe. But as I was walking, I remembered that earlier that day when we sang at the nursing home, Mirjami and I prayed for an older lady, for her back pain and eyes. Now why did I think that God would heal that lady but not the man? It's ridiculous to think that I actually thought that my prayers would work for one person but not the other. I was so upset with myself!
So the next day, I was walking with Petri and Jessie to go to breakfast and saw a girl with a broken arm. Instead of stopping to pray for her, I kept walking and told Petri that I saw a girl with a broken arm! Good for me, I saw her. But what good does it do for me to see her if i'm not going to do anything about it!
By this point I was beyond irritated with myself and decided to set aside time for us as a team to just go out on the streets and pray for people who need healing. So we did! We prayed as a team and then went out. After walking around for quite some time and prayer walking, we still had not seen even 1 person that needed physical healing that we could see!! Crazy since I kept seeing people all the time and now there was not even 1. So we were terribly frustrated that we still had not prayed for anyone so we decided to just go for it. We just wanted to pray for someone. So we saw this woman walking toward us and Mirjami felt like she needed to pray for someone with back pain. She stopped the woman and asked her if she had any back pain. The woman answered yes so we asked if we could pray for her. She allowed us and so we did. We ended the prayer and she hugged each of us and thanked us and then rushed off. She didn't seem too comfortable with us praying for her. I don't know if anything happened or not but I trust that when I pray, God moves. So it's up to Him. We stopped quite a few other people but they didn't want us to pray for them.
This outreach has been good. I've been learning so much and we are only a thrid of the way through it! So more learning is inevitable! It's good but not always fun. I've learned that God has to always be my priority, if He's not, then what's the point. I can't very well give if I don't have anything to give. And the only way I can get what I need is if I run to my Father. My first response to crisis has to be to go to God. And my first response to success has to be to go to God. I'm learning this. But I'm also learning that I don't want it any other way. Well enough rambling. My next post will most likely be from the Faroe Islands! Woohoo!
I dont know if I can say it enough. We and I are so proud of what you are allowing God to do in your life. Go for it! I'm proud of you!
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