There is always that one thing that each of us feel like we can never get rid of. And as soon as I said that, that one thing popped into your mind. It's the battle that we feel like we won and then it comes back and we're like "WHAT THE HECK! I thought I beat you!". Recently, my one thing has tried to ease it's way back into my life and unfortunately I succumbed to it. The Holy Spirit brought it to my attention and led me to get help and I did, but a battle is never won without a fight. Fighting is hard, it's exhausting, it's so much work! But we can't beat our struggles if we just let them beat us. We have to fight back. There was a point where I was feeling completely powerless and I shared with a friend and her and two others sat down and prayed with me. We asked the Holy Spirit to speak but all I could hear in my mind was "You will not win this". They asked me what I was hearing and I told them. My one friend said, ok were gonna acknowledge the enemy and say yeah I may not beat you today and I may not even beat you tomorrow, but just know I will keep fighting until I take you down. Battles are rarely fought in one day. Especially when you have allowed it to become a part of you, but if you keep fighting you WILL win!
Another thing that I was really struggling with was the thought that I had thought I beat this thing for good. I never wanted to deal with it again. But here is truth. The enemy knows what pushes your buttons and he knows what's gotten to you before, so why wouldn't he throw the same struggle back in your face! Why wouldn't he come back for revenge! But our response cannot be defeat that it came back, that gives him even more ammo to use against us! We have to learn to see the attack when it comes and fight it straight away. Don't allow the fact that it's back to make you shrink back, use it to fuel your fight even more!
I was watching Wizards of Waverly Place today (no surprise there! haha!) and there was a quote that Alex said that just really hit this concept home for me. She had fought and defeated this evil guy before and surprise! He returned for revenge (just like the enemy). She looked at him in the face and says to him "Don't forget I've defeated you before". Yes! That is the stance we have to take. Instead of allowing self-pity to destroy us, we have to remember the battles we have already won! It's for that reason that in the Bible when Israel won a battle, God had them build monuments so that they would remember the battles they won. You are a winner! You know how to fight! A problem cant come back unless you have already defeated it before. We have to fight like winners! It makes me think of when God spoke that simple phrase to me "Self pity destroys hope"! It's so true. If you act defeated, you will be defeated. Remember your wins, and stare the enemy in the face and say "Don't forget, I've defeated you before".....
